Just ended my first relationship with KI, 2 years and something.  My only escape was going to chat rooms, engaging on eb's(eyeballs).  Yes indeed I've gained some friends and new enemies.

One day when I was online I happen to stumble on a furios/pa-highly intellectual/grabiela-I-am-female girl name Kring.  Really I had some of the most intellectual conversations with her.  At the beggining I had this online friend they were always clashing.  So as a man I would be on the side of my friend.  After days of nonsense arguements on whose the better gender.  I talk her privately and begin to exchange some good ideas/arguements.  My idea of her was she was around my height 5'4,short hair and fair complexion.  Anyways, we were always online talking,  she said she was always online due to the fact that she the one semi-managing her aunts cafe and hardware store.

She was single back then.  Countless guys where courting her.  Well in a sense it gave me the impression that she was pretty.  But nonetheless I wasnt interested in her to be my next girlfriend.  I was interested in her because she can really talk sense out of me.  I remember one time two guys were on her the same day, she ask for my counsel, yet I just laugh.

heto and una kong post ngayon 2008.  Muntik na akong nakalimut sa blog-life ko.  Sino naman ang may panahon na bumasa nito. 

Kumusta na ba ako?. Ano ba ang nangyari sa 2007.  Sa tingin ko hindi pa rin ako nakapag-move-on. Si kring pa rin nasa isip ko,  tipong naghahanap ng closure. Aaminin ko na. I am still in love with you kring.

Paano naman si kite, ang kasalukuyan kong gf.  Sa totoo lang parang ganito.  Hinahanap ko talaga ang closure namin ni kring.  Para naman kay kite, mabait siya,  sa totoo lng nakita ko sarili ko sa kanya at ako naman ang nag-asal kring ngayon.  Pinilit ko man sarili ko na umibig lamang sa isang babae. Oo, nakaya ko pero sa loob kung nan doon silang dalawa sa harapan ko at nagtatanong kung sino ba sa kanilang dalawa. Hindi ko alam ano ang gagawin ko.

Ang ganda pala ng feeling. Pumunta ako sa bahay ni ki, ang unang Gf ko.  May bago naman siyang BF.  At sa ngayon masabi ko welcome pa rin ako sa bahay nila.  At bumili rin ako ng computer monitor sa computer shop na minamanage niya.

mga secreto ng 2007

Jan 1,2007:Last goodbye namin ni kring as "kami"
feb 14, 2007: Wala akong date, mas pinili ni kite na samahan mga kaibigan niya. nga pala nakalimutan niya ako.
sept 2007: Nabisto kami ni kite.

Well,still thinking what else to do with this blog.  Since the cause of this blog is no more.  Well,till me and kring will meet again, and talk again, the least be friends again .  I think she is bitter now or as others would simple put it into words, trying to start fresh.  Well,Life goes on for me.  And hope it will be for her.

Hmm,lets start. Here is a list of girls I want to spent a steamy night.  Dont get me wrong its just plain carnal.

1)dags-My ex's bestfriend, well.She can wear those super sexy dress without being slutty.  By profession a nurse.  Well I just like gurls in a nurse uniform.  Hell of a fantasy right. Hahahaha,Specially if a nurse wears some black lingerie(I know its forbidden but I did see some nursing students wearing something black inside..wow!!!)

2)kring-My ex, her skin really smells,taste sweet. I could still taste her skin till this day.YUM!!!,anyway she might be petite.  But definitely gifted with a cute nice ass.  The moment she struts her stuff on me. WOW!!!. Remember a brief moment when he try to emitate fergies moves,jiving to "my humps"..GRABEH!!.  Great talker, masinop, brains+beauty. Definitely my favorite ex

3)Lyn- one of my co-workers. Definitely a looker,her eyes are such that you seem to be looking in.She is one of those girls who wears a lot of clothes pero parang lumpia.lol!!!

4)Maya-Nothing beats college girls, ang higpit pa ng skin sa braso,ang puti,fresh.  Innocent looking.  Mga trip ng mga pinoy,maputi,mahaba ang buhok,misteryosa effect.

5)dess-One of my ex's friend,  There was this time that I was just staring at her only to realize it was her.  Sweet and childlish voice. Nice eyes,sarap titigan.

6)dyan-My friends lil sister.  That's why every week I try to visit my friend.  Sarap tingnan ang legs,paano pag nasa bahay shorty-shorts lng ang suot,sando pa.Still chidlish though.


I'm sleepy now. Anyway I will definitely Edit this list.

 

I tried to call her before and on her birthday but all she did was cancel the call.  I just wanted to greet her a happy birthday, and obviously want to hear her.....for the simple reason that I miss her.  A gift was wrap before that night,as usual it came with a letter.  But I think it would  be inappropriate for me to give her one, she wouldnt accept it.  Whats the gift you ask....a 5 hour gift check from an ktv/spa/cafe bar and a alarm clock from Sm.  Well it be my second birthday gift that didnt make it.  Anyway days after she post some pictures from her birthday Partee' on her blog.  She look happy now, looking good and cute..hahaha. That makes me smile, knowing that she is happy and smiling(who wouldnt she made  the boards and a lot of people love her..).

Kring, now starts your real life..find a job..i know its so easy for you...congrats nga pala...

*I am thinking to close this blog since I made this as "the outlet" of my frustrations towards her and our relationship.  I think she is happy now, and so am I.

 

"sometime being happy aint enough,you got to get back to and do something about what makes you unhappy".Well hope I did get it right, Morgan Freeman( UNLEASHED).


 
It was morning right after I did fench Kite from work.  Opened my Chikka and there she was(kring).  Anyway I did say "hi" but as expected,not even a single reply.  The way she behaves nowadays bugs me.  As if I did something wrong(well we did part ways,we talk things out,and promise to be civil about it). But the way she treats her EX(me) bugs me.  Though I am something that hate cant contain.  Frankly the way she behaves now reminds me of the "silent treatment" she always does when we were still "together". Sana maging masaya ka. I dont mean to be mean again pero your one hell of a liar(remember,you said na were be friends,may friend ba na di mamansin).

Oo nga pala I did meet your bestfriend.She is still stunning,though I didnt get a chance to ask about you,we just exchange "hi".(I was dying to ask her bout musta ka na...ka nga gusto ko mangungumusta sayo).  kring hope you do good in what your going in and know that loyalty and trust are not the same.Trust is a silent agreement,while loyalty is the deed itself.I know you will find your "man from the future".


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to Kite:
We all got to do and change something,what better place to start than your home.  We do commit mistakes,  and yes people do have expectations on you.  Your still in a process of gaining back the trust youve lost to them.  And frankly what's within us,is forbidden,taboo.  Hope all will be fine regardless of the outcome.

to myself:
what does make a man a man?is it how he fulfills his promise or how he acts on what he feels.  You been always lost, no clear direction. What is clear though is that you always go to the path that is less taken.  You are a loner,by heart,selfish,arrogant.  clearly you got a lot of things to learn.  You are still 20-something.  Just be wary though.And be reminded that A mistake can also be considered right if you do something about it.

Im adding back the Church of St.jude as one of the places that i claim to find my solace.  the ambience aint as holy as the pink sisters,but thats the only place that so accessible to me right now. though pink sisters still on the top of the list(its a pilgrimage for me,walking 2 kilometers uphill).

im always seated on the left wing of the church,maybe as a sign of respect to my dearest friend kring.Why respect?? I just dont want her to get the wrong message. but if we see each other then be so it. Yesterday I did catch a glimpse of her(or maybe i was just wanting to see her badly).on the rightmost wing(the hair the shirt type and the face).

honestly I dont know why I enjoy sundays. My current girlfriend states that I do look forward cuz she's not around.But maybe cuz I can freely go anywhere I want to go church,window shopping,and just walking and reflecting.........in simple terms I  do need some space for myself and ITS SUNDAY,my SUNDAY!

kring did pass the boards,she is now a certified professional.Makes me smile,makes me proud..somehow.But one thing that I did notice is that she wont reply to my text messages.  There was a night when I called her at home since he wont answer her mobile phone to congratulate her.Her aunt was the one who answered the phone,but sadly she was asleep.(though its still around 9pm, she never fails to watch PBB).

Kring,we are suppose to be friends. no matter what had happened between us. We promise ourselves that we will be still friends.Guess your the one who broke the promise that we made.

Frankly...I miss you my friend...oh my dearest friend...

i always hide something perhaps a bit embarazz by what had happened and what might other people think about it.well maybe now it will change,somehow though.I am an   ENGINEER GRADUATE. But as for now I dont practice my profession.I got to study a 5 year course,pass the licensure exam and here I am talking to americans with my borrowed accent and my compensation so small(7,500/month).Well better something than nothing.

This blog came to life  because of a certain individual, my now ex-girlfriend "kring" whom i devoted my almost two years of love and support.It all started when she date another fellow,rejected my good and romantic gestures. And this blog was my way of venting out my angst,love,hatred and hope that it would be all fine.  Anyway,thing is in three weeks time,I came along and meet "kite".we started sharing problems and what life had given us.  And here we are,sharing oourselves to each other.well till next time.

bukas happy puso na naman. isang taon na rin:
PAST:
    nasa cebu ako noon,nagREVIEW for the BOARD exam. tsaka namiss ko cya(my X).pumunta ako sa ayala,kumuha ng ticket pauwi.Ewan ko pero umuwi ako.bumili ng sang damukal na white roses(Care of a friend's flowershop).naka japorms pa ako nun,polo slacks...hahay,parang pupunta ng PROM...

    february 14,10am,drama ko sa kanya may pinadala akong gift galing cebu.pinuntahan ko cya sa kanilang "hardware" at sinupresa.sa totoo lng iba ang reaction na nakita ko sa kanya.yun tipong "bakit umuwi ka????d ka na lng sana umuwi" pero in fairness she did accept my bouquet of flowers(white roses).

now(reminiscing):

    na-trauma na rin ako,yun lng talaga ang feb14. na binigay ko ang lahat umuwi pa ako ng cebu para sa kanya.ayaw ko na ng 214.

now(thinking)

    may bago na akong GF.mabait,sa kanya ko lng naramdaman na may tao palang naghahanap ng aking pagibig....love you honey!!!..pero somehow..i still..still love my "EX".pero with my "ex" takot lng cgro ako dahil paglaroan naman nya ako.paminsan nasabi ko.... isa lng dapat ang ibigin!!!

   nagLALARO

nov 14(10pm)-15(1am): araw na yun.  gusto ko na malaman kung ano ba talaga ako sa kanya.  Pinuntuhan ko cya sa kanila,naghintay ako na kami na lang ang naiwan. "gusto ko maya usap tayo".  madagal rin hindi ko nahawakan ang kanyang mga kamay,sa panahon na iyon parang nandidiri siya sa akin paghawak sa kanyang kamay.  Pero naramdaman ko rin na namimiss rin nya ako.  "ano ba talaga ako sayo?" pinilit ko yun sabihin sa engles.  "ayaw ko na sa atin" para kaming bata umiyak.  ewan tagal namin nag-usap.  ang huling halik,huling yakap.  huling paalam.....sa araw rin yun,una kung araw sa training

    PAGLALABAY,nag-iisa

unang araw sa training. "can u tell us something about you?" sabi ko naman " im an electronics communication engineer just this morning me and my girlfriend jus broke up". Ewan pero hindi ko maalis sa isip ko ang nangyari sa amin.  sa araw na yun,sinabi ko sa sarili ko na dapat ko makuha ang trabaho na to.  para mapakita ko sa kanya na may papatunguhan ang buhay ko. 

    ISIP dahilan

nagsawa.

    panibagong pahina

sa training may nakilala ako si  kaye. dami siya ng pinagdaanan kung pwedi ko lng sabihin sa inyo.  sa totoo lng kaibigan lng talaga ang hanap ko sa training namin.  paano kasi inlove pa rin ako sa X ko.  ayun mga kasama ko sa pag lunch o pag uwi ay puro mga babae.  ewan ang sarap maging "only boy sa grupo".  "SWERTE!!".


    nangyari  na dapat ang mangyari

eto talagang tequila. ewan,nakita na lng namin sarili namin nakaharap sa isa't-isa. alam ko naman na bago pa lang kami nagkakilala ni kaye. kahit cya ang unang tao na naka-usap ko sa pag-apply. lumabas kami sa bahay ng co-trainee namin na kami-na

    ANG pagbabalik ng dahilan ng lahat

isang araw nakatanggap ako ng text "dating ka naman daw sabi nila,nakita ka daw nila". sabi ko naman "uu,exclusively dating".